The Other Side of Morgellons

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oh my dog!

my dog was supposed to be getting on plane tomorrow morning. i am getting ready to go back to ireland and am shipping the bunny dog ahead of me. i got a call this morning. his flight had to be rescheduled one week from now as the kennel in belfast where he us supposed to go after his flight, will be on holiday.

in anticipation of travel i have been taking extra precautions and really stepping up his bathing and nutrition routine.  bunny like myself has morgellons ( i know it’s nuts).  i haven’t been worried about him because he was able to shake morgellons fairly easily (compared to me!).  the problem is  this temporary studio i rented to get through my lyme treatment here in california.  it is a very old and not so well cared for building. it was built in 1919 and has six floors.  i call it the hundred year old bio hazard building. oof..seriously this building is bad news. it has mice and every size and shape of bug you can think of.  lot’s of people and kids and dogs and yes there are bed bugs here. oh and  oh the mice. tons off them.  the itch started when my dog started pouncing on the mice. i was here for about four months without a problem. then he learned how to lay in wait and intercept the gauntlet that the mice routinely run. after he had killed a few of these unlucky little vermin. we both started itching. i guess some kind of mite that was living on the mice bailed ship once it was obvious the ride was over.  you can imagine i nearly lost it.   after working so hard to get my health back there is no way i am giving it up with out a fight.  i did the whole up and down routine on this apartment. i am leaving real soon but i have to be really careful not to take anything out and with me.  i have to be seriously extra careful with myself, my belongings and the dog.this place is in serious lock down decon. mode.  i have very little stuff here thankfully. i threw out anything i could. i treated the place with all the usual stuff (borax,  essential oils, apple cider vin., sulphur, diatamacious earth, menthol and even tobacco). i made different mixtures and keep them in squirt bottles). everything is inside of plastic bags.  lot’s of stuff i have bagged and froze for 24 hours. for clothing and bedding i operate out of plastic bags. both for clean and dirty.  this place is crazy and i can not wait to get out. the whole of the building is one big scratchy, itchy mess.  it smells like raid, the kids have asthma, it’s hot and stuff is hatching. ugh. i can’t just check into a hotel because i have a dog. though since i got that call this morning telling me there is a week delay i might just find a dog friendly place.  everyone is grumpy here because no one is sleeping.  i am thankful to know that i am not the only one scratching though. i know that sounds bad but you with morgellons must understand that constant wonder..”is it me?”  “bugs?”  “am i crazy?”   “huh?”.  i have only recently come to understand that that insects may be a  part of morgellons.  i am not hanging out to find out if they might make me sick again.  that i know of, i never had a big bug issue. i did feel like i had a spider bite on my cheek that may have been connected. i will never truly know so i will take every caution in the future. nothing get’s out of here alive except for me and my dog, and that’s that.


for bunny i am doing  all the usual baths, soaks, and salves.  including some of the products i mentioned above. i stepped up his nutritional routine and added neem back in. i made a video discussing some of the stuff i do for him.   i seem a little neurotic, i  admit i am. it is just that there is no way..not a chance…it is never going to happen, that we go through what we did in the past years. also i would never forgive myself if i brought anything into our house in ireland. i am nipping this one in the bud. i am taking this little bug problem very seriously.  had i taken the itch as seriously in the previous years i might have been able to head off the morgellons disaster that befell on me and every last aspect of my life.  i did not know years ago what i was dealing with. i had no idea there could be some kind of inset involved.

well i am no expert obviously. i am just sharing mine and amy dogs morgellons expirience. i did this video to the compliment the post.


there needs to be a public health warning!

let’s all keep deanna in our prayers as she struggles through lyme disease and treatment. i thought she did an excellent job here in this video where she talks about the devastating effects of lyme disease and it’s co infections. notice she cites a spider bite leading her to becoming ill with lyme.  this is not just about disease carrying ticks anymore. we are talking spiders, mosquitos, fleas, and  bedbugs. keep in mind we are experiencing an almost global biting mite epidemic. there are many that believe that morgellons or some aspect is indeed vectored by some kind mite infestation they experienced in their home.  i can not believe there has not been a public health warning about lyme disease alone, don’t even get me started about morgellons.

For The Love of Dogs And Morgellons

I have no idea what Morgellons is or how I got it.  I just want to put something out there for the people who have pets. The following is absolutely the truth. In 2007 I started getting sick. Really sick. I started isolating because of..well you know, Morgellons disease. My friends turned their backs on me and I have very little family so I thought I would become a dog fosterer. The first dog I fostered turned out to be the last and only dog I fostered. He is sitting on my foot right now.
He was a healthy gorgeous pain in my ass. They told me he was 2 years old. It turns out he was an 85 pound puppy. The first thing he did was poop in my bedroom and pee in the kitchen. When I told him to sit he ran the other way but he was healthy and beautiful. I was not.

I gave Morgellons to my dog. I made my dog sick or it was the house, I don’t know. The point is the dog was living very healthy in a shelter for four months before I met him. After hanging out with me in my house he got the itchies. Later he became sicker. It was heartbreaking. As I started figuring out how to get myself better I was able to get Bunny better. I used silver, herbs, and plant oils on his inside and outside. I power hosed his lesions on his rump and tail. I set the hose to that setting when a bunch of little streams come out fast. His itching was so bad at times he would throw himself against the wall and flop down whimpering and crying. In those times I bathed him in epsom salt and then took him out and hosed his itchy hot spots. He loved it and I did notice stuff lifting out of his lesions. He got better fast because he is a strong healthy happy young dog. It took me much longer. Still though it was in one of his ears really bad and just last month I had him at the vet to have a deep ear flush. It has finally cleared.  After his ear flushing it finally resolved his one weeping eye that he has had since he got morgellons.
when I was “sick as a dog” it was my dog that sat by my side and in the end when I thought I had lost it all I found I still had a lot when  I still had  my dog. Maybe some people might have to get rid of their pets but that is so sad to abandon them. I  want to say that I had Morgellons before I got my dog and did in fact give it to him. Even if I gave it to him then him back to me and so forth, for what he gave me in comfort and loyalty it was worth it. My life was a living nightmare and I might not be here if it weren’t for the loving company of my best friend. Living that isolated and sick for almost 4 years would have killed me.
To keep him protected now I give him diatomaceous earth mixed into plain kefir. I also add MSM and chorella to his food. His diet is 80 percent raw protein 20 percent raw plant. He is very healthy again. Me too. Thank you for reading.

I just posted the above comment on Mr Common senses site. I don’t agree with all these people blaming the animals and ditching them when the going gets tough.  Apparently dogs, cats, horses and birds are in this with us. That sucks. When my dog got sick I prayed thanks to God that I did not have children. My heart goes out to those that have had to watch their children get sick. I can not imagine that.  That is the one really bad aspect of morgellons, probably the only one I did not experience.

Oh our dogs! We love our dogs (and all the creatures). I have no experience getting cats, birds or horse’s out of this but I did walk the dog straight out of Morgellons hell.  He also walked by my side and held my paw better than any human. When he got sick I understood why they say “sick as a dog”.

Poor bunny. The first thing I did was start him on very strong colloidal silver. There is a certain brand and I will not mention names but it is 3900 ppm.  I put 8 drops 2x per day on his food (he weighs over 100 pounds). I took him off his Eucanueba lamb and rice kibble and switched him to one tin of chicken, brown rice, raw carrots and apples.  I fed that twice a day.  His snacks were only  papaya,  pineapple, carrots, and apples.  As he got used to and loving eating fruit and veg I started putting fresh cilantro on his food and various other veggies.  The stuff really started running out of him.  Even fibers came out of one of his eyes. I now feed him the biologically raw food diet  (barf diet).  80 percent protein and 20 plant stuff.   I add a huge  variety of veg to his food. He loves it too.  A typical meal is: (my dog weighs 102 pounds)

5 or 6 organic chicken wings

A couple of baby carrots

Or a half of an apple

Fresh cilantro or other green

A bit of cooked pumpkin or cooked sweet potato

I almost always sprinkle ground flax-seed on it. I always put olive oil on it. I sometimes put coconut oil on it. I almost always put MSM and or chorella on it. As a treat I make home-made dog cookies (a recipe below).  For a treat aside from his home cookies I will stir a little diatomaceous earth into plain kefir. Also at horse supply places they sell those giant tubs of probiotics for a good price. I use Mercolas pet enzymes and sprinkle those on his food.

Anyway there are a lot of ways to get your dog eating better. If you have a dog do the research. It is frightening what goes into dog food. If your dog seems not too keen on the raw food there are lot’s of ways to start them off and peak their interest. Lightly cooked egg blended in gets dog more interested in the veg. Most people put the fruit and veg through a food processor.  The meat has to be small meaty bones. Not the big supporting bones.  I freeze all Bunnys meat prior to serving  (wipes out parasites).  For the chicken I clean in apple cider vinegar most of the time. If you are really scared of salmonella, do that. Or to soften the bones to get them started soak the chicken in apple cider vinegar.  I have heard some raw bone nightmares.  (Update: I now feed him nothing bigger than wings are back bones) Raw chicken bones are fine for dogs, ask any fox or coyote and they will tell you…”we are fine with raw bones”. Do not feed your dog cooked chicken bones.  Some people say “my dog will not eat fruit and vegetables”. I say well then your dog is just not hungry enough… yet. Same for people (or sick enough).  Dr Becker a veterinarian that I found on Dr Mercolas site  makes a good point. Canines should not be eating grains. She has an excellent video on how to feed your pet. After watching her videos and doing research (including animal testing on my own dog) I am sold on the biologically appropriate raw food diet. Lately I feed Bunny canned sardines too.

Here is a little doggy cookie recipe:  (Yes I know it’s not raw. I am not a total fanatic. But raw is good)

2 cups lentil flour

3 eggs

Half cup ground flax-seed

Half cup shredded unsweetened coconut

Quarter cup coconut oil

If it’s too doughy drizzle water on it until you can easily lay the mixture out on a greased baking sheet.  Bake for 20 or so minutes. Cut them to desired size after it cools.

Since it is hot lately I have ten freezing these cookies and give them to bunny that way. They are cool and also it slows the hog down.

I also add MSM and chorella. If you want to do this you will have to factor in the weight of your dog to size you cut the treats to the amount of treats you give them.   When I have the occasional treat of organic bacon I always save the fat and use this to baste my dogs cookies.  It’s just enough to peak his interest without making him too fat.  I use the above recipe as a base and add different things for variety. When you get your dog on the veggies you will start to see they definitely have preferences.  Bunny likes cabbage better than lettuce. He likes carrots better than apples  but he eats it all. He loves broccoli, papaya, green or ripe. Enzymes are good for dogs too! I make sure Bunny gets plenty of them.

A couple of thoughts:

dogs are not supposed to have avocados, onions, chocolate or garlic. I was surprised to read that they should not have garlic. Early on in morgellons I ate as much raw garlic as I could and fed it to bunny too. I skip it for him now just in case. I however  eat raw garlic in everything. I believe it is more effective raw than cooked. I really want to do more research on raw garlic and dogs because I felt it helped him so much. I can not seem to find a straight answer. Does anyone out  there know anything on this subject. I hate it when I can’t get a straight answer about something ( making me the worst candidate to have Morgellons…).

Update..I give my dog garlic now.

I almost forgot, I just wanted to say I wash my dog a lot. After walks I clean his paws with vinegar. When he was sick I washed him in most of the same things I washed myself with. I even rubbed oils into his fur. I put coconut oil on him and he laid in the sun. We also both take diatomaceous earth. I also put it on his back.

Now I am sorry I have to do this to you. Please meet Bunny the Princess King AKA Dr  Eatmore.Image



a dinner date, good bye morgellons hello sunshine

so tonight is a celebration.  it has been a twisty scary uphill road and i finally can see and feel the light that was turned out seemly overnight.  when i got on this road there was no sign saying “you are now entering morgellons and lyme country”.  there was also no sign saying “brace yourself for a world of hurt”. not just physical but the shock of how i would be treated by doctors,  friends and even my family.

as i shopped today i realized i am better. a lot better. even the trauma has subsided.  the scars will always be… both figuratively and literally. morgellons  ravaged my once very nice skin. it also chewed my heart to pieces.  also somewhere in the battle i got old. i turn 47 next month. the last birthday i remember being well was my 40th.

tonight  i am in los angeles and my rock, my love, and biggest fan in is ireland. so tonight’s post is a transatlantic, celebratory, world wide web dinner date. not long ago tom mentioned that i never wear red lipstick anymore.  i told him that my skin is so scarred now i don’t want to draw anymore attention to my face.  well tonight i put lipstick on and i also made a beautiful meal.

so onto the food. firstly i bought grass fed organic ground beef today.  the first time i ate grass fed beef was years ago in oregon. this hippy argentine guy brought it over to our house. he was really happy about it. he went on to prepare these steaks simply and beautifully with cracked pepper and course sea salt that sort of exploded in your mouth as you ate this gourgous meat. it’s just delicious i can not find the words.  it makes me think of galileo and when he said that “wine is sunshine held together by water”.  today i thought of course, it’s perfect. the grass eats the sun, the cow eats the grass i eat the cow and we all ate the sun.  we truly are not exactly what we eat but as it is said “you are what the animal eats is”. it is sad to think think about what animals have to eat today. humans included.

i wish i could have photographed tonights dinner with something other than my camera phone because it was truly beautiful. in loving memory of my sweet aunt mary i made her “italian french frys”.  i peeled russet potatoes and tossed them with olive oil,  fresh rosemary, garlic, salt and cracked pepper. i put these in the oven at 400 and went on to prepare the rest of the meal. i made a raddichio and lacinato kale salad.  both italian lovelies.


from wickpedia….

 “Lacinato kale has dark blue-green leaves, with an “embossed texture”; its taste is described as “slightly sweeter and more delicate … than curly kale.”[5] Because of its taste, “slightly bitter [and] earthy”,[6] it has been called “the darling of the culinary world”.

i tossed the salad with olive oil, lemon, garlic and added some sugar plum tomatoes and put it the fridge to chill while i prepared the grass fed beef into an herb filled meatloaf. here is a photo.


for the mesatloaf i blended the grass fed beef with a quarter cup ground flax seed, a half bunch minced italian parsley, a half bunch minced cilantro, about five cloves minced garlic, four minced green onions, olive oil, one egg, cracked pepper and salt. molded it into a loaf on a baking sheet and baked about a half hour at 350. here’s a photo..again i have to say it does it no justice. this is not your average meatloaf.  a photo….


so i am happy and stuffed and here is the movie to complete the dinner date .good night world.