by Living With Morgellons
Whatever Morgellons disease turns out to be, for me it was a blessing. It taught me I have Lyme disease.
I get sad when I wonder how many people out there have Lyme and don’t know it.
How many people just think they’re only crazy lazy, or stupid.
I wonder how many people are in mental institutions or prison or just lost in their own house (until they lose their home) because Doctors have failed to accurately diagnose them.
Who’s fault is this?
I know my own private Doctor is a good Doctor and a kind Doctor and she truly didn’t know what Lyme disease was or that I had it.
She could have never diagnosed me for an illness she knew nothing about.
Who’s fault is this?
Is the Center of Disease Control really that powerful?
I watched the video below and I saw myself and my life in those people and I realize I’m crying because I’m angry that I let Doctors, so-called specialists call me crazy. I took their pills and I did what they said and I believed them when they said I was I imagining the pain and it was only stress that caused me to get lost in my own neighborhood.
For myself I lost a lot of time to Lyme. I’ve had it for most of my life.
If I told you what I’ve been through, it might make the hair raise on the back of your neck.
I can’t say I lost my life because I’m better than that and I’m bigger than Lyme and I would like to think I transformed my illness and got as much good as I could from it.
The problem for me is when I think of my lost time and I multiply that by an unknown number from all the people who have Lyme. That’s when I become outraged.
That’s a lot of lost time and potential.
If not for Lyme, my sister would have been a Doctor and when you start adding up the number of sick and multiply that with collateral damage, it starts to get ugly.
Meanwhile America is going to the dogs and I wonder how many of the sick could have been watch dogs for liberty, only they can’t get out of their beds.
How did this happen?
Is the CDC really that powerful?
Call me crazy but this humongous fuck up doesn’t feel like an accident and yes I’ve gone back to swearing.
I cleaned up my gutter mouth for a long time because I realized people don’t listen when you swear and I thought it was just more graceful;
But this disaster is an epic disgrace and “I am myself the matter of my book”.
I see videos like this and I get mad, I just don’t know what to do about it. I’ll keep talking and probably cussing until I figure it out, thank you for listening.
Please watch this video of two Vermont farmers suffering with Lyme disease. It’s less than 10 minutes of your time.